Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Blackout.


So I decided to just start typing in a new blank word document. No idea really where I was going with it. The thought of like getting in a car crash came to mind. As I was thinking about that, I realized that if I was in a car crash I would really want to just pass out and not have to deal with everything that was going on around me.
I usually don't explain my writing, but this one may confuse. Basically the first half is talking about a person in a car crash that wasn't driving, and couldn't stand the surroundings, and also was a risk of blaming him or herself for the crash.
The second half could be seen one of two ways. (1) Someone does blame the passenger in the car and takes it out on him or her for the distant future. (2) It could also be portrayed as a totally separate story, just two examples of times you may want to just blackout.


Black out, and close your eyes
It will be over before you know it
Shut it out, turn it down
The noise will disappear soon enough
Think of her, remember him
Time will pass faster
Slower if you don’t

Want it to disappear, then you have to
Just listen to my every word
It will go by faster than you think
It wasn’t your fault
It wasn’t your fault

Shattered glass, broken skin
Screams aimed to no place in particular
Your not the captain at the helm
Maybe this is what destiny had in store

Black out, and close your eyes
It will be over before you know it
Shut it out, turn it down
The noise will disappear soon enough
Think of her, remember him
Time will pass faster
Slower if you don’t

Want him to disappear, then you have to
Just listen to my every word
He will go away fast than you think
It isn’t your fault
It isn’t your fault

Hard fist, soft skin meet
Maybe destruction isn’t what he sees
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
Black a blue grow together
Your face is his canvas

You want it to disappear
Memories and all
Listen to my every word
It will never go away
But it isn’t your fault
It was never your fault

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

textfromlastnight.com

texting Pictures, Images and Photos


It is the new Fmylife.com.
Here are some funny ones I found tonight.

(812): My girlfriend went down on me and as she did she hummed the theme from star wars and pretended my dick was a lightsaber...I'm buying the engagement ring tomorrow

(857): seriously iPhone. stop autocorrecting all my fucks into ducks. you're making all my strong worded texts look harmless and adorable.

(910): wow wtf my bar tab was 80 dollars
(910): IT WAS DOLLAR BEER NIGHT

(760): I seriously love my fucking boobs. They are so boobs.

(508): I'm so horny!
(781): I'm so hungry
(508): WHAT A TERRIBLE REPLY!
(781): For your pussy...

(248): Kristen just told everyone at the bar that I've got a huge dick, now Brittany is giving me the eye. What is the opposite of FML?

(559): Just figured out how to smoke weed with a toaster.

(402): I just high-fived this girl after she swallowed.

(404): I cant believe you went over there and fucked her last night after everything you said
(770): she invited me over to play the wii, it's not like i intended to
(404): You KNEW her power was out...

(858): Spotted on freeway- girl in ford focus takes a hit from a 7 inch pipe while knee driving. She winked at me. I want her life.

(607): Either he has two lazy eyes or he really likes my tits.

(763): there should be a rule- if you jizz on it, you wash it

(347): you know when i was in school the girls definitely did not have the tits the 15 year olds have now. so unfair.

(571): he quoted cool runnings while we were having sex: feel the rythm,feel the rhyme, get on up, its bobsled time

(651): So baked. Thought the twigs on the sidewalk were caterpillars with the ability to harden in self defense. Had to pick one up to be sure.

(212): I know she is the girl of my dreams bc she orgasmed, rolled over and then asked if I knew that Orlando beat Cleveland.

(516): i soberly give you permission to do that to me when im drunk

(732): Facebook lets you pick usernames now. You'd better log on and get yours before homewreckingwhore is taken...




and one last one.



(516): I need to have sex with someone before he does. I need to win this break up!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Why does it always rain on me?

Was it because I lied when I was 17?


Well a sudden forecast for thunderstorms and rain has caused us to cancel our trip to Cedar Point.

Friday, July 17, 2009

what to do for writers block.


Most writers read another book. Listen to music. Watch a movie. Rest their eyes. And I usually play Crazy Taxi on Facebook. But I did something stupid today, I started to write another freaking story. And it isn't even that great, because no one can read it. Except maybe Alex and my mother. So I got a chapter down, and I could probably write another tonight, but I don't want to start it and have to finish it tomorrow.
SO, yeah, I don't know why I shared. Maybe because no one will be able to read it unless I get it published.

"A friend once told me, “I bet I will publish a book before you do.” And although I agreed I argued, “Sure, but mine will be more successful than yours.” The debate continued. Maybe she was right, her book would be fact, and mine would no doubt be fiction. And as Alex would put it, “People rather read about something that has, or is, really happened.” For all I knew, she could be right. So I could ditch the fictional story I have been working on for the past six months, and put it on the back burner. Perhaps it was time to forget all the hard to get girls, and strong, strangely attractive guys. It was time to write about something I have experienced, and know about."

Thursday, July 16, 2009

oh she's only seventeen.


Be honest, who is the easiest person in your life to talk to?
alex.


Your ex says they never even liked you, you say?
sure.


Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
canada.


What would you do if a crazy person ran at you with a knife?
scream.


Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you?
yes.


How did you wake up this morning?
I wasn't tired anymore.


Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
a few people.


Are relationships ever really worth it?
yes.


When was the last time you were in a very good mood?
working out. running always puts me in a great mood.


Were you single last summer?
nope.


Do you like thunderstorms?
I love them (:


Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
mom.

What's the weather like outside?
it's dark, and not that hot.


Are you someone who worries too much?
I am someone that likes to know exactly what is going to happen and how to deal with it. I am also trying to change.


Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?
nah.


Do you think this year will be better than the last?
god yes! senior, finally.


Do you believe in love?
yeah.


When was the last time you saw your father?
a couple weeks ago.


Do you believe in this saying: What goes around comes around?
yes.


What was the last thing you bought?
a pop from work.


What was the last thing someone bought for you?
hm, mom bought me hot dogs, yeah.


Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
about a year and five months worth.


Are you good at hiding your feelings?
not at all.


Is there someone you'd really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
yes, but I am really too shy to ask.


Have you ever been called prince or princess?
sarcastically.


Want someone back in your life?
no, I got them back.


Do you think teenagers can be in love?
yeah.


How fast does your mood change?
it can change very fast, very.


Do you need to say anything to someone?
yes, "You are a fucktard."


Do you want someone to call you right now?
yeah, but their phone is dead.


What do you want for your next birthday?
I really just want everyone to remember and do something little for me, it would be nice.


Do you get drunk every weekend?
no.


What do you always take with you?
phone, car keys, glasses.


Who was the last person to text message you?
angela.


Are you a jealous person?
I can be.


Would you rather write a paper or give a speech?
write!


Would you say you're an understanding person?
very.


Do you have any brothers?
a step brother.


Would you ever get a tattoo?
my next one is going to be a slipknot quote probably.

What are you looking forward to the most in the next seven days?
cedar point in like exactly 7 days!


Nickname you're called the most?
car - with my friends.
fun size (or something weird) - at work.


Who do you miss the most?
muh kyky.


How often do you do laundry?
a couple weeks, a really stretch it out. I had to do it today because all I had to wear were leggings and a old pom shirt.


Last thing you ate?
cucumbers and ranch.


Have you ever drove someone else's car?
my mom and dads.


What do you hate the most about girls?
drama.


Did you have a good day yesterday?
yes.


How are things between you and the person you like/love/are with?
things are great and will be better when he is back from canada.


Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?
I try at times.


What never fails to make you cry?
panic attacks, stress.


Are you talkative?
depends on who I'm with, unless I'm drinking, then I am very open.


Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand it?
nah.


Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
I really will tell guys everything about myself if they ask, it's easier to open up to them.


Who was the last girl you talked to?
amber.


Does anything on your body hurt right now?
my arms are sore.


Do you listen to love songs when you're down?
no, I try to avoid them and play something a little harder.


Next vacation you're going on?
up north /:


If you could have one thing right now, what would it be?
$500 to buy new clothes.


Who in your phone has a heart after their name?
no one.


Who has a nickname instead of their real name?
eric, he is "mr. handsome". Why? idk, I think he told me to put him in as mr. handsome or captain sexy.
jordan, he is "the prodigy". Why? because he is.

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
yes, a lot.


How many pillows on your bed?
four.


Who was the last person you took a photo of?
amber and katie.


Who was the last person to text you? What did it say?
angela "kathy had her baby!"


Are you keeping a big secret right now?
nope.


Has someone ever told you they love you and you didn’t say it back?
yes.


Is anything bothering you?
yeah, kinda.


Is anyone else in the room with you?
nope.


Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot?
now.


What's your favorite drink?
lemonade.


What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
what time is it?


Are you satisfied with your life?
pretty much.


What were you doing at 7AM?
sleeping.


Wearing any bracelets?
a hair band.


What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
sleeping.

Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don't like?
yes, very.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Friday, July 10, 2009

my birthday wish list.

Here are the things I would like, but probably wont get:
  • a joint (:
  • ipod touch.
  • samsung gravity.
  • any new cell phone really.
Things I will get (or have gotten already):
  • my tattoo.
  • money.
  • ikea gift card.
  • puma running shoes.
Fuck, 17 sucks. It is possibly the most boring of all birthdays. I mean, 17, you're not legal yet. You are just one year closer to everything. One year closer to being able to buy Black and Milds, porn, and lottery tickets. Not to mention one year closer to 21.

Woo, I can go to an R rated movie without sneaking in now.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Moving out.




It is a huge goal Alex and I have set for ourselves.
To be honest, we really want to start looking for a cheep house or apartment as soon as senior year wraps up.
Work today was really boring, so I was reading the classifieds.
Three bedroom ranch in Redford, $800 a month.
We could probably swing that, Alex, Andy, me, and Kyle, maybe even a couple more people for the third room.
So I have set like the ultimate goal for saving my money.
Plus my mom has already started filling up my "Hope Chest" with silverware.
So I guess I can add to it too.

I have plans.
And intend to see them through.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Some changes.



These past three days have been pretty eventful.
Alex has also been at my house since Sunday night.
But I:
  • Lost a boyfriend.
  • Cut my hair off.
  • Got a tattoo.
  • Dyed my hair basically black.
  • Reconnected with my friends.
  • Planned a trip up north with Alex.
I'm happy. Mostly.
On the downside my cat buddy is dieing, and has to be put to sleep soon.