exhausted.

I can honestly say I have not felt this down in awhile. And the weird thing is, nothing at all has changed in the past couple days. If anything, the week has been great so far. The one thing that sucks is these three straight days of testing that juniors have to do, and thank god tomorrow is the last day. Fuck ACT's. I know I will probably not score super great. But anyways, the point is I am so tired. This test shit is wearing on me. I was bored when I got home from school today, and I figured since it was my only free night of the week I would have some me time and go running at the rec. Once I got on the treadmill I turned on City and Colour's new CD and closed my eyes(while holding on tight to the handle bar thing.) So yeah, I drifted away and soon enough 20 minutes were up and I got in my 2 miles for the day. 25 sit ups, it was all I could manage considering some dude had his eyes on me since I got on the treadmill, and I wanted to get out of there and come home. Well he followed me from the lockers to the stairs and did that whole "Ugh hm." thing to get my attention but I refused to turn around, freak. Anyways, he followed me down the stairs and I flew out the door as quick as possible. That bullet dodged.
Wow, what a rant! And it keeps going. I got home to my family leaving for my little sisters concert at school and they were all like "Oh, you want to come?" and I was all like "Oh! I look like shit and am baking in sweat underneath this sweatshirt." They left. I tried to write, fuck writing a book. It takes years supposidly and I am to impatient. I got one idea and it was relating how cheese and crackers always sounds good and taste good for the first few and then you are sick of them and wish you never cut up the damn cheese in the first place.
Oh! And to top it all off, Toshi died. Or is dieing. Toshi is my TV. I never gave it that name until it started taking 10 minutes to turn on after hitting the power button. Lets just say, I turned it on at 4 yesterday and when I got home from dance at 8 it was still clicking away trying to turn on. It's hard for me, I cried. I have been falling asleep to a TV since I was 12 or 13. I am horribly scared of the dark and a nightlight wont do. I need like moving light and sound to feel safe.


On the plus, I might not be going to WV for spring break, but because Brandon rather work (same here !) and my mother trust and loves me. But she really has no reason not to, I haven't done anything bad in awhile.

That's my rant.
All I want right now is:

1. midol.
2. my tv to turn on.
3. the weekend to be here.
4. summer!